Tuesday, April 07, 2015

A taste of spring and now I'm hooked!

Spring is in the air, finally I can feel it!!

It's still a bit cold here, altho again I hardly feel I have the right to complain at all that it's a little on the cooler side, given what more eastern parts of Canada have been dealing with.  The cooler I'm talking about here is the 'slightly too cold to wear flip flops but I can get away with wearing them anyway so I will' kind of cold.  Really not bad at all!

Yesterday my dad put up some reed fencing for us in the backyard, so we have a bit more privacy from one of our neighbours.  I wish we could have a proper fence but I liked the price point of the reeds and I think it'll look nice once the deck has been extended (which my dad will be doing within the next few weeks).  I got part of the backyard raked and it already looks SO much better.  The kids love playing outside and I love the fresh air and living room-extension to outdoors.  I LOVE the way spring feels.  I feel invigorated and happy.  I live for flip flop weather!

Today James came home early so while he got the girls down for a late nap (they were having way too much fun playing outside and then playing with Duplo and Lego to nap earlier!) I went out front and raked the leaves from there.  I wish the gardener did it but at the same time I enjoy it.  I had a little chat with our other neighbour and I like to see who's coming and going from the complex.  Yes, I can imagine I will be one of those watching-everything senior citizens!  But so what :P. I like to be out getting fresh air, enjoying nature, and getting the garden spruced up.  It looks so clean and inviting now.  I love the flair our house has out front, it makes me happy.  Yes I know we'll have lots of rain, too, because after all, 'April showers bring May flowers,' but knowing we have a lot of potential for good outdoor weather in the next 6 months makes me feel so much more alive!

Sunday, April 05, 2015

An eventful Easter day!

This was definitely an eventful Easter.  It could have gone terribly awry, but it ended up being a really memorable day (in a good way once all was said and done!)

Last night I mentioned that Margaret had fallen and hurt her arm...I felt so bad for her.  She had me up with her 8 times before I went to bed, and I just wanted to hold her and cuddle her but she could barely even let me move her into a more comfy position because she was so terrified that I might touch her arm.  I tried to move it a tiny bit but she started screaming and crying, which probably should have told me that I should take her to the ER right away, but I figured it was ‘just’ a sprain and she’d be a lot better by morning.  She sprained her wrist once before and it didn’t take very long before it was better.  So I figured in the morning she’d be her usual self.

I knew something wasn’t right when I got up and found her laying awkwardly on the couch, unable to move.  James had to get her out of bed and lay her down like that because she couldn't move on her own because of her arm. She wasn’t acting at all like herself, and couldn’t move her left arm AT ALL.  Her hand looked a bit swollen and while the arm didn’t look that different, I felt like it didn’t look quite right with the way she was holding it.  I told James that it would definitely have the potential to really change the day, but one of us should probably take her to the ER instead of waiting.  He said he would take her.  We didn’t think any clinics would be open on Easter Sunday and really, the ER just made the most sense, so off to Burnaby General they went.

I felt so bad for her.  She had no shirt on but it was too cold to go out with nothing on, so we managed to get her into a muscle shirt of Andrew’s, that actually was my brother’s shirt when he was about 6 or 7!  Wouldn’t you know it, yesterday Andrew and I had some fun with a black pen, drawing some tattoos on his legs and belly, and of course the girls wanted some, so Margaret had little spiders and stuff all drawn on her body.  I washed them off as best I could before they left, and the doctor didn’t end up looking her over anyway, but still!! Murphy's Law, right?!

While they were gone I did some cleaning in preparation for the evening, and made the mashed potatoes.  (I’d made the stuffing, carrots and parsnips, and James had marinated the Tofurky and Brussels sprouts last night, so we were luckily already fairly prepared).  I’d planned on going out with my dad for a few after Mr Bunny arrived late morning for the Easter egg hunt, but the egg hunt was postponed till the afternoon (Andrew was quite concerned that Mr Bunny would skip our house, but I explained that he would know to come back later!) and I called my dad and cancelled our outing.  I’d planned to get my parents some flowers but since our outing was changed I decided to take Andrew and Emily for a little walk to a nearby store to get some flowers.  Andrew picked out a really pretty bouquet, and then we stopped at a small playground on the way home.  I didn’t hear my phone ring but checked a few minutes later and saw there was a message from James.  He and Margaret were finally on their way home.  

It turned out she had dislocated her elbow, and the doctor just moved her arm a certain way and problem solved!  Margaret was apprehensive at first and didn’t want to move her arm around, but James managed to ‘trick’ her by giving her his cell phone to play with.  At first she didn’t fall for it, and put the phone down on the chair and started swiping at the screen with her good hand, but eventually she reached for it with her ‘bad’ one and did a double take when she didn’t experience any pain.  And then she was fine!  

When they got home it was already time for the girls’ nap but I thought it made sense to do the Easter egg hunt before nap time.  So James took the kids outside to play in the neighbourhood, while I let Mr Bunny in to do his thing.  He hid various types of chocolates all around the living room.  Andrew had made up a little egg for him because he felt that the Easter Bunny is always left out and doesn’t get anything despite all he gives to everyone else.  He thought it was hilarious that the Easter Bunny left all the wrappings from the chocolate egg all over the floor, and a little thank you note with paw prints on it.  Andrew also gave him a bus ticket so he wouldn’t have to hop all the way home after :D

The kids all enjoyed finding eggs, and thank goodness Margaret was feeling more herself and was able to join in, too.  When they’d found all the candies, I said that it might have just been Fifi I’d heard but that I was upstairs while the Easter Bunny was hiding the eggs, and I thought MAYBE he might have gone upstairs so maybe we should go check if he’d left anything up there.  The kids bounded up the stairs and found their Easter buckets filled with little toys and books.  They were so excited and really seemed to enjoy everything they got.  (Andrew was particularly excited by the spider with ooze that he’d been eyeing up at the dollar store for the past few months!!)

After the chaos of all of that, Andrew and I went over to my parents’ house to give them their flowers as I didn’t think it would be good to have them sitting out for the whole entire day and evening since they were coming to our place for dinner.  They got Andrew some new Skylander’s stuff for his Xbox game (that he only plays at their house since we don’t have an Xbox!) so he stayed there with my mom while my dad and I went to Rona and Home Depot.  I got a rake, a saw, and some bamboo fencing.  Fun, I know!  Actually I’m really excited about it.  My dad is going to help get our backyard in better shape.  We’re likely going to extend the deck he built us the year before last, and do a few other things to update.  We’re also going to add the fencing to block our newest neighbours’ yard from view.  Not really anything against them, we just want privacy and currently there’s none.  We were going to put the fencing up last year but never got around to getting it.  (Although in all honesty, it will be nice not having to look at all the garbage they put outside their back door...but I won’t get into that right now).

I dropped my dad back at home and left Andrew to come back with my parents later for dinner.  I came home to discover the girls were STILL napping, and they ended up sleeping till a little past 4pm!  Margaret was obviously tired after a painful night with a popped elbow, poor girl.  James and I had a little time to sit and chat, which was a nice treat, and then I got to work setting the table and getting some last minute cleaning and meal prep done.  I feel like despite the whole ER trip and worry about Margaret, the day went smoothly once she was home and we knew she was OK.  We were prepared enough yesterday for today that I didn’t feel like I was in a mad rush and all stressed like I sometimes (possibly usually) get when we’re hosting something.  Also, I recognized FINALLY that while I do like to have everything 'just so' even when it’s my parents who are visiting, the reality is, I can be a little more relaxed when it’s 'just' them, so there was no need to get all worked up about it!  So I felt like I was actually a tad bit relaxed today, which for me to say is kind of amazing!  It was also nice to get out for a bit with my dad, even though we didn’t stop for a coffee or anything, just going to those few stores together was nice because we pretty much never go out just the two of us it seems.

My parents and Andrew arrived at 5:30, the girls opened up their Easter gifts from them (some chocolates and some super adorable dresses from Carter’s and a really cute tank top from Joe Fresh!) and we had a drink and then it was time for dinner.  It all turned out really yummy.  I LOVED the tofurky, seriously it was possibly the best one yet.  I’m not kidding, I love tofurky.  

Yesterday I’d picked up a really cute vanilla and white chocolate cake for dessert that looked like a little Easter bunny.  It was adorable and also tasted really good AND wasn’t very expensive at all, so I really scored big on that one!  I also got raspberry sorbet to go with it and it was so refreshing.  

We had lots of laughs as the kids were wound right up and constant entertainment as a result.  Margaret couldn’t stop singing a hybrid of Katy Perry’s Roar and Let It Go from Frozen.  Emily exclaimed that she had to go potty and then instantly pooped on the living room carpet (they’re only in diapers now at nap/night time).  And Andrew blew bubbles in his milk till it was foaming out all over himself, then he stripped down naked and ran around the room.  Margaret kept breaking the bunny apart that came on the silly straw that was in with her Easter loot, and she kept unwrapping all her chocolates just to make sure they did in fact contain chocolate in the wrappers, then she’d re-wrap them and toss them on the floor.  Emily kept wanting new outfits on, and both girls enjoyed twirling around in their new dresses.  Andrew got a pirate treasure chest from my parents and put as much Easter stuff in it as he could find and enjoyed sorting it and taking inventory of all he got.  The kids really genuinely seemed to enjoy their Easter day so much, which really made me happy.  Especially now that the girls are old enough to appreciate things more, all 3 kids really got to experience it as a special day.  While we don’t celebrate it in the religious sense, we did give Andrew a little lesson on what Easter is traditionally about, so we didn’t leave that aspect of it out entirely.

I can’t say enough what a great evening it turned out to be.  My parents seemed to have a really good time, too, and James and I were a good team in getting things cleaned up so that by the time my parents left everything was basically done and it didn’t feel like there was any extra work to do from our usual.  The kids went to bed about 2 hours late, but after a late nap and all the excitement of the day, I wasn’t the least bit surprised! And Andrew and I got some cuddle time in watching a few episodes of a Mr Men dvd before he gave in and admitted he needed to go to sleep.

Too bad James doesn’t get tomorrow off, too, but all in all it was a great Easter!

It's Easter craft time

From this morning (Saturday Apr 4, the day before Easter).

Emily:  I want a princess cup, too.
Me:  We only have one right now, and Margaret has it.  The other one broke.
Emily:  Yeah, the other one bwoke.
Me:  You can share that one with Margaret.
Emily:  Yeah, I share with Mahgwet.
Me to Andrew:  Emily is such a sweetheart!
Emily:  YES MY AM!

Had to be there, but, so cuuuute!!  :D

On Thursday after school the kids decorated our Easter tree.  I want to make it an annual tradition - this was the first year of it.  I got the little tree from Target after my aunt and nana brought us an adorable set of mini Easter decorations when they came to visit several weeks ago.  

I realized once I had the kids all geared up for the activity that it wouldn’t take very long as between the 3 of them there wouldn’t be that many decorations to put on.  But they shared nicely, didn’t fight over who got to put what ornaments on, and they all seemed pleased with the end result.  Andrew had made a baby chick out of felt and pipe cleaners at school, so we stood that beside the tree.  He was proud of the fact that of all the chicks the kids made, his was the only one that would stand up!

Yesterday I had planned for the kids to decorate Easter eggs, but we didn’t quite get that far.  I got some eggs hard boiled, and managed to dye a few, but had to get more eggs before we could continue.  Instead, I had Andrew decorate some styrofoam eggs while the girls napped.  Or should I say while the girls did everything in their power to NOT nap and successfully managed to not nap AT ALL (and as a result became complete WRECKS by dinner time, but anyway…!!)

It turns out styrofoam eggs don’t dye, and also don’t decorate all that well, at least not with what we had on hand, so I doubt I’d go that route again…

But I had, at the dollar store of course, purchased a carton of 12 styrofoam eggs that are already coloured and have some glitter on them.  I just bought them for fun, not really knowing what we’d do with them but knowing the kids would like them.  Andrew asked if while the girls napped (or, spent time in their room but not napping, as it happened) we could take turns hiding them in the living room and finding them.  At first I didn’t like the idea because I thought maybe it would take away from Mr Bunny coming on Sunday with eggs for the kids to hunt for, but then I decided, let’s do it anyway!  And it turned out to be so much fun.  Andrew LOVED it and after almost TWO HOURS he was still loving it.  I gave up on getting the girls to nap and they joined in the fun and it was definitely a really easy/fun way to get them running around and playing happily.

James and I got a gift card to Earl's for Christmas so my parents looked after the kids in the evening while James and I went out for dinner. I had the herbivore burger, made with a falafel patty and it was DELICIOUS. James got a watermelon pina colada drink and had some issues with the straw but enjoyed the beverage. He's so funny with his drinks, he always seems to order the most feminine drinks. After dinner it felt like we hadn't been out long at all so we went and picked up a coffee and drove up to SFU to just sit and look out at the city for a while. It was nice to get out just the two of us, but wasn't long enough and I felt a bit sad at how quickly those few hours went by. When our dates are so few and far between, 2.5 hours out together feels like a bit of a gyp. But it was better than nothing!

This morning I went to the gym (I went yesterday, too, for the record since I’ve yet to start recording it properly...so I did manage to go 3 times again this week after all!) and then got a few groceries for the Easter dinner we’ll be hosting tomorrow night.  I got more eggs, so hard boiled 6 more and got them dyed.  Then I gave them to the kids to decorate.  Epic fail.  Let’s just say that the stickers didn’t stick, Andrew was upset that the ‘Hawk Eye’ character one couldn’t be kept forever because the egg would go bad, which the realization of resulted in a meltdown and a time out, and Margaret cracked her eggs open because she wanted to just eat them!  So the girls each ate an egg, and Andrew promised to change his attitude and managed to remove the Hawk Eye wrapper from the hard boiled egg and I (thank goodness) successfully transferred it to a styrofoam egg so he can keep it forever now (the little hoarder that he is!)

It didn’t go as smoothly as I thought it would have, but thinking on it later I don’t know what made me think it would go smoothly in the first place?!  Two 2 year olds and a 6 year old...I don’t think anything could ever go smoothly where eggs, dye, and hard-to-peel-off-the-backing stickers are concerned!  But when all was said and done I think they enjoyed it for the most part, and that’s all that matters.

I also cut out paper egg shapes this morning and gave them each a few crayons, some mini pom poms in various pinks and blues, and glue to dip them in.  They all had a lot of fun decorating their paper eggs, I was actually amazed that they were all pretty much SILENT for a good 10 minutes, which is a long time for one activity to captivate, sad but true!  In fact, Margaret stuck with it the longest and really seemed to be absorbed by pasting the pompoms to the egg.  Usually she’d be the first one to lose interest, but she loved this craft for some reason.  When they were all done, Andrew had the great idea to hole-punch the tops of the eggs so we could put some ribbon through and hang them up, so they’re currently a part of our kitchen Easter decor, and they look really festive!

Shortly before the girls’ bed time, Margaret and Andrew were running in opposite directions, accidentally slammed into each other, and each fell backwards.  Unfortunately, Margaret landed on her arm and is having a lot of trouble sleeping because she basically doesn’t want to move it at all.  I think she sprained it.  So that should be interesting...She’s had me up to her room probably 6 times in the past couple of hours.  It’s nearly 1am and James will be taking over once I go to bed...Fingers crossed she does OK.  She’s been doing so much better lately, usually no more than one wake up for James.  Still sometimes several before I go to bed, but that’s not as big a deal to me as through the night.  She’s also been sleeping in slightly later lately, which has also been a plus for James.  I’m hoping she’s miraculously better in the morning for the Easter egg hunt!

Mr Bunny usually comes to our house around 10am or so.  (I love that the Easter bunny comes to our house at a decent hour, and not at the crack of dawn like Santa Claus!!!! So much more civilized).  James takes the kids out and I open the back door enough for Mr Bunny to come in, but I leave the room so I don’t scare him off, and he does his thing hiding the eggs.  This year he’s going to leave them each a bucket of goodies outside their bedrooms, so when the egg hunt downstairs is over they can go upstairs and find another surprise!  They’re going to have so much fun, I can hardly wait.

Thursday, April 02, 2015

Best April Fools' Day ever!

Yesterday was April Fools’ Day and Andrew also happened to be ‘Special Helper’ in his class for the day.  The Special Helper has a special chair they sit in during circle time, and they also are the leader when it comes to certain activities.  Because Andrew’s day fell on a gym day, for example, he got to choose what activity they’d be doing (he chose hula hoops!)  I think it’s a really cute idea, and also nice to give the kids a time where they each have an extra sense of responsibility, and a time to feel, well, special.

Anyway...the Special Helper also gets to bring in something for Show and Tell.  Because it was April Fools’ Day, we decided that Andrew should play a fun little trick on his classmates instead of bringing in a traditional ‘Show and Tell’ item.  We thought of a few ideas but they didn’t seem appropriate for one reason or another.  Then we happened to be reading one of his magazine subscriptions (Highlights, or Chickadee) and it just so happened to have a list of April Fools’ pranks suitable for children to joke their parents (or, in this case, classmates) with!

The one we chose to go with went along perfectly with the fact that Andrew was Special Helper.  He took in a food container and told his class that because he was Special Helper, he wanted to do something nice for everyone, so he’d made some brownies for everyone to enjoy.  As all the kids watched in anticipation of a yummy treat, Andrew opened up the container and lo and behold, it was filled with ‘brown E’s!’  I had cut a whole bunch of E’s out of brown paper and put them in the container.  The kids laughed hysterically.  They were so busy laughing about the joke that no one got upset that there was in fact NO treat, but they weren’t given the chance to realize it because then Andrew said, ‘I do have actual brownies in my bag for everyone!’  And that wasn’t an April Fools’ joke!  (I had originally made mini brownies but they didn’t turn out as I’d hoped so I went to the store and bought two packs of two bite brownies.  They were a huge hit!)

The teacher thought the joke was so funny that she took Andrew around to all the classrooms in the entire school and he performed his trick for the whole school!  I thought that was so awesome, and he wasn’t the least bit nervous.  He was right in his element!  He absolutely loved it.  In fact, he had one of the best days ever =)  There were enough brownies that all the teachers and even the principal got one, too.  I have a feeling we’ve started something here...We’ll have a lot to live up to for next year’s prank!

Wednesday, April 01, 2015

On the verge...

Just for the record, I went to the gym last night, and I’ll be going again tomorrow and then either Friday or Saturday, depending if I can get there on Friday night or not.  So far so good in sticking with my 3 day a week plan!  I think I’ll just start marking on my paper calendar when I’ve gone instead of feeling inclined to post it on my blog, as unless I’m wanting to post an update on my progress there’s no need to mention it.

I’ve been feeling fairly burnt out the past couple of days.  Not just in the sense that I’m tired, as per usual, but just...overwhelmed, and not necessarily loving our current routine.

I know it’s a normal thing for a stay at home parent to go through, and of course is fraught with more challenges the more children one has...But the kids seriously treat me like a slave a times...lately, a lot of the time...and I think I’m getting to the end of my rope.  They’re just being kids, and the only thing I can do is remind them that I’m a person too and that there are kinder ways to ask for things, etc.  But it’s still hard sometimes to deal with.

I feel good about the fact that I got a gym membership and maybe you’d expect that would stave off my feelings of not being ‘me’ and just being ‘mom’ because technically I AM doing that for myself.  But it doesn’t seem to be working that way.  I just feel overwhelmed by how much I need to do but never have the time for, and frustrated that everything takes a million years longer than it needs to because everything I do has to work around the kids’ needs, which means everything I want to accomplish gets pushed to the back burner (to the point that the back burner needs a serious cleaning now, too...No, seriously).

I want to feel like I’m on top of things, but the truth is I am back to feeling as if I’m floundering.  I seem to go through cycles.  For a very brief period I will think, ‘Hey, I’ve totally got this!’  That period is sometimes briefer than brief.  As in fleeting.  But it DOES happen in moments!  Then I’ll find myself sinking and going through the motions but with a bit of a cloud over my head.  A cloud of exhaustion more than anything else.  And then I’ll get to the point where I’m about ready to snap.  My breaking point.  I’m pretty close to it currently, or at least have been for the past 2 days.  I’m hoping tomorrow I’ll be able to miraculously snap out of it!

I just have SO LITTLE TIME and almost zero help other than James, and it’s not working out for me if I’m being honest about it.  It’s really not working out for me all that well at all.  Again, there are moments where I feel like I can handle it all but part of me feels like that’s because I know I have no other choice.  In reality, I’d love to have a bit more help so that I could get a few things done during the day once in a while, whether that be errands, chores, or just HEAVEN FORBID have a little bit of time to do something I’d like to do, just for me, so I might feel like I have a little of my own identity back. I know, privileged first world problems, I know I have a great life and I hate complaining because I DO appreciate all that I have, and I AM grateful that I get to be a stay at home mom because it would kill me to not be with my kids most of the time.  I just think sometimes it should be OK for a SAHM to want just a little bit of freedom in her life.

James is at work full time, but if he so chooses he can go grab a coffee and take a little breather.  Or he can meet up with a friend for lunch and, if he doesn’t have any pressing deadlines, he can take a bit of a longer lunch break should he so choose.  Obviously commuting isn't 'fun' but he gets the chance to zone out and listen to music, podcasts, watch a show, just close his eyes, whatever he so chooses for nearly an hour each way to and from work each day. I NEVER have that kind of option.  I can’t even sit on the toilet without the company of little ones!  And most of the time I’m OK with that, because it’s what I’m used to, but at the same time, it’s only natural that at some point having zero time to oneself in a day can get a person down.

Anyway…moving onward and upward and working on being more positive!...I do feel bad venting about that stuff because I adore my kids, it's not about me not loving them, I just need some freedom to feel like I'm not just a slave all day long every day...

A few cute things from today:

Something Andrew said this morning and has said a few times recently.  He’ll be joking about something, or find something someone else says particularly funny and he’ll say, ‘Oooh, that was so funny, I’ve got tears!’  It’s hilarious.  And with his one giant tooth gap from where he lost his top tooth last week, he has the cutest little lisp when he talks.  I thought I’d miss his tooth since he has such adorable and perfect teeth, but the gap adds a whole new level of cuteness that I love!

This afternoon I noticed Margaret over by Fifi.  She was trying to reach out to pet her, but Fifi was backing away from her.  Margaret put out her hand gently and said, ‘It’s OK, Fifi, it’s just me.  It’s just me.’  I thought that was so cute!

We were watching a little America’s Funniest Videos today (the girls started mimicking me saying, ‘I wonder what’ll happen next?!’ which was funny!) and the host said, ‘It was simultaneous!’ about one of the video clips.  Emily threw her head back and said perfectly, ‘It was sim-ul-taaan-eous!’ like it was the most hilarious thing ever.  Also super funny to me!

Then Emily was playing with her Rapunzel doll, which she and Margaret each have one of.  They also have little doll beds from Ikea that they love to tuck their dollies into.  Emily brought Rapunzel over to me and asked me to wrap her in a blanket because Rapunzel was ‘feeling a bit sad.’  I wrapped her up and Emily immediately cradled her and was rubbing her back, and bouncing her ever so slightly just as I would do when I held her as a baby.  She was patting at her back and looking at her as if she was her baby and she was consoling her.  Totally melted my heart!

Margaret moved her doll bed and nearly crushed her Rapunzel doll but when I mentioned the doll was under the bed she looked and picked her up while saying, ‘Sorry Punzel, sorry!’ and gave her a hug and a kiss.  I love how loving my girls are!

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Gym assessment and other stories

I’ve been to the gym 4 times since I signed up a week ago, so I have to say: so far, so good!  I had my assessment appointment this weekend, where I got weighed and measured to see where I’m at, and talked about my goals, nutrition, etc.  I also got instructions on how to use more of the machines than just the circuit, so I now have the confidence I need to really push myself.

Obviously I’m not going to notice ‘real’ results this early on, and I still have to do more outside of going to the gym to step up my game if I’m going to get where I want to go.  BUT I will say that I always feel better for it when I’ve been for a workout.  I went one afternoon during the week and found that I didn’t crash by early evening in the same way that I usually do.  Coincidence?  Possibly, but more likely there’s a correlation.

I felt really pumped after my assessment.  I thought I would be more nervous going into it, since getting weighed and measured isn’t really tops on my list of things to look forward to.  But I want to know where I’m starting from, and despite not having weighed myself in quite a few months (our scale battery died and I haven’t bothered to replace it yet) I was basically exactly where I thought I was, so it wasn’t surprising.  

I also felt good about how it went because I feel like my goal is realistic.  I want to lose 30lbs, and in my mind I was thinking that was a starting point, but that ultimately I’d need to consider losing A LOT more than that.  Seriously I was thinking I should probably lean more toward 50 or so.  Which seems like a scarier number to me, because of course every pound more is going to be that much harder to lose.  But as it turns out, based on my BMI (which is a rough guideline to go by, even according to the person giving the assessment!) and other numbers, if I lost much more than that amount I would actually be considered ‘unhealthy’ in terms of losing pounds that my body needs to keep.  Honestly I think if I lost 30 I would be completely fine with keeping a few extra ‘just in case’, I don’t mind having a little extra meat on my bones!  And I guess when it comes down to it, the truth is I don’t even care so much about the number, even if I didn’t lose 30 (although it’s still my goal) I ultimately want to look more toned, lose some inches from my post-ten-thousand-children belly, and feel better in my clothes.  

It felt good to know that my goal is realistic, attainable, and something I can then maintain rather than have to keep working at losing more, which for some reason I find comfort in.  I felt really alive after that appointment, did a longer workout, and felt totally pumped when I got home.

I was pretty tired by later that afternoon, but I was also giving James the full afternoon off to do his own thing because I was going to be going out for several hours today (Sunday) so I didn’t want to be feeling guilty about taking that time.  (Not that James would make me feel guilty about it, but I wouldn’t be able to help but feel that way, since our time is so precious these days and we have so little of it, it seems).

Quick rewind in the week to Thursday (March 26) - Andrew FINALLY lost his loose top tooth!  That thing had been so loose for WEEKS, I had been so sure it would have come out almost 3 weeks ago!  He and I had taken turns wiggling it and pulling at it to no avail, and then of all things he was eating a bowl of lentil soup after school and suddenly it was out!  He said his bottom tooth snagged it and pulled it back and then he could feel it hanging from a string so he pulled it out!  AND he didn’t lose it, so he did manage to put it under his pillow...but then I suggested he have it more toward the end of the pillow than the middle so the tooth fairy could find it, and he decided instead to put it in the little pocket of his giant Hulk pillow.  And in the morning he discovered the Tooth Fairy had been, and had left him a Toonie =)

Just after his tooth was out (and was bleeding a bit) Margaret looked at him and then at me and said, ‘What happened to Andrew, who did that to him?!’  LOL.  The girls didn’t believe at first that one day their baby teeth would fall out, too, and Margaret wanted me to wiggle her teeth just to make sure they weren’t loose yet!

Fast forward back to the present…

Today my mom and I went out for some girl time.  I had a few gift certificates from Xmas and my birthday to use for some new clothes, and ended up getting a pair of pants, a dress (that needs leggings underneath, sort of like a shirt dress I guess?), 3 shirts and 2 camisoles.  I’m happy with what I got, but trying on clothes felt somewhat nightmarish to me, and to be honest it made me really glad I’ve already signed up for the gym, because I just kept seeing what I see as my flaws, and I have to say the person I see in the mirror isn’t the person I think of myself as.  Ever since having twins...and I know it might seem like I’m using that as an excuse, but the truth is my body has never been the same since, and even working out won’t change it back to how it once was.  My hips are WIDER, there’s nothing that can be done about that, Baby A and Baby B stretched them out to make room!  I try to embrace it because my body IS amazing in the sense of what it has accomplished, and as far as I know I’m overall healthy, and I don’t want to complain about my body because it has been through a lot and considering that, it’s in amazing shape!  I just can’t help but wish it was a bit smaller/toned but I know that’s why I got the gym membership and at least I’m making steps to make changes.

My mom and I also went to Michael’s craft store and OMG I could buy up a storm in that place!  I loved everything and wanted it all!  But their prices are CRAZY high and I don’t know how they get away with it.  I would have spent way more than I did if I felt like I was getting a deal getting the stuff but I couldn’t justify it.  I got some beeswax for a whopping $28 but then used a 40% off coupon to make it more reasonable, and then got a few little things from the dollar fifty section, but yeah...SO MANY CUTE THINGS to be found at that store.  

Gym motivation and a few kid updates

Written on Tuesday March 24/15...Not sure what made me forget to finish it/post it, but here it is!

I went to the gym yesterday a little after dinner.  I wasn’t going to go because I was running on 3 hours sleep, but I also knew I’d feel bad if I didn’t, so I did.  I discovered that if I do one full circuit I can actually get there, work out, and be home in one hour.  So it doesn’t have to take a super long time on days when I just want to get the work out but don’t have a lot of time.  I plan on doing the circuit twice the next time I go, as I want to push myself harder.  I have an appointment for a proper assessment coming up, and I’ll start using other machines once I’ve had that appointment.  But in all honesty, I love the circuit because it’s an automatic full body workout in just 30 minutes!  The biggest issue for me is still when the best times are to go, though.  Mornings are out because I don’t get enough sleep as it is, and James has to leave a little after 7 for work so I’d have to get there at 6am which does NOT work for me AT ALL!  I know a lot of people swear by working out in the early morning and I can see why, but it’s not for me!  Not at this stage of the game.  Evenings are my only option, but take tonight for instance...I just couldn’t do it.  I was so tired (again) and then decided maybe I’ll combine going to the gym with FINALLY ACTUALLY COMPLETING the C25K program.  But I imagined myself doing the run and I became even more tired, and decided to just stay in.  I know, I know, that’s not going to get me the results I’m wanting but...I’m doing what I can, in small steps!  :D

I hope to get to the gym twice more this week, so I actually DO think I’m doing pretty well, and I’ve found that I’m already more conscious of what I’m eating and what exercise I’m getting when I’m not at the gym because if I’m going to work at getting healthier by going to the gym, it doesn’t make sense to ignore that goal in other areas of my life.  

In other news…

After dropping Andrew off at school today, the girls and I drove to a park near a friend’s place who also has twins (boy/girl who are only 4 months younger than Margaret and Emily).  We hadn’t seen each other in a while so it was nice to reconnect, and the girls enjoyed playing on the playground for a while.  It was a great park for little ones because it’s fully enclosed and made for preschool age, so there really wasn’t anything they could do to get into trouble.  It was cold so we couldn’t stay as long as we’d have liked, but it was nice to get out somewhere a little different than coming straight home from school like we usually do.

The girls have been napping later lately, and resisting more (especially Emily, when she has always been the good go-to-sleep-er.  I suspect it’s their way of phasing out nap time, only Momma isn’t ready for no nap situations, so it’s somewhat forced upon them!  They still NEED their nap because if they don’t have one they melt down by early afternoon.  So I’m justifying urging them to continue napping for the foreseeable future!  Today Emily resisted so long that by the time they actually fell asleep, they didn’t have as much time as usual and I actually had to WAKE THEM UP to go pick Andrew up from school.  They were totally disoriented because I’ve almost never woken them up when they’re napping!

Andrew has a REALLY loose upper front tooth.  I was SURE it was going to come out about 2 weeks ago but it has stubborn roots and it’s not quite ready yet, even though you can tell just by looking at it that it’s on it’s way out.  Fingers crossed he doesn’t lose this one, since the Tooth Fairy wrote him a note last time and said if the 3rd one isn’t under his pillow she’s giving up on him!  LOL  He kept his first tooth for sentimental reasons, and the second was lost in the living room, and we never found it (I’m guessing it got vacuumed up, though I searched the bag to no avail...and we’ve since had all new carpet installed so it’s not like it could just be hidden somewhere and we’ve yet to come across it...which would be really disgusting too given that he lost that tooth in September I think it was!   

Monday, March 23, 2015

Spring is officially here...and Spring Break is officially over!

It’s hard to believe today was the last day of Spring Break.  That two weeks went by quickly.  It sucks that the first week was the sunny one, and I was sick for pretty much the entire thing.  But I feel we made up for it as best we could in the 2nd week in terms of doing activities with the kids.

Today I took Andrew bowling for his last day off outing.  I didn’t tell him where we were going, so he was surprised, and only figured it out once we were less than a block away from the bowling alley.  He was excited, and it was definitely a fun mommy/son time.  We played 2 games of 5 pin.  In my defence, Andrew had the sides up and I didn’t...but he won the first game with 100 and I got a measly 68.  I was trying, too, sadly!  It was not my game.  The 2nd game I won at 137, and Andrew got 109.  It was lots of fun, and we finished there with 2 games of Air Hockey, which is kind of our tradition when we go bowling (which we only do a few times a year...mostly because it’s RIDICULOUSLY expensive...For 2 games of bowling and 2 games of air hockey, it cost almost $28, and the reality is that we were probably only there for about half an hour, because bowling doesn’t take long when only 2 people are playing).  I wish we could go more often, but it’s always a treat when we do.  We never go to fast food restaurants pretty much ever, unless you count the occasional trip to Orange Julius for a drink.  But after bowling we always hit up Wendy’s for Frosties and French Fries.  It’s our thing!  Andrew was excited to get one of the toys there, and knew all about it already from seeing it on toy reviews (of course he’s on the up and up with these things!)

While we were having our snack we made a list of all the fun things Andrew got to do during spring break, and it surprised us both how long it ended up being.  At the beginning of the break Andrew was a little sad because I was too sick to take him and the girls to the park and we were pretty much housebound because I always seemed to end up with flu symptoms if I pushed myself and went anywhere.  I was feeling so guilty about not doing more for him during his break.  (Next year I do think James should take a few days off so we could do more things as a family but we have summer plans that will require him taking at least a full week off, and wanting some time saved for Christmas means not being able to swing many extra days).  But this afternoon he told me that he may have felt that way for a few days but in the end it went so well that he did more than he could have hoped for!  So I definitely feel better about that.  

I know getting back to our routine and having Andrew in school again will be a good thing for us all, but I’m really going to miss him.  Yes, it’s true, I hope to get some rest during the girls’ naps again, which I wasn’t able to do with Andrew home, but there’s also something to be said about the extra time we had together.  Our routine will be good, but I won’t lie, I might start counting down the days till summer break!

Friday night at the mall

On Friday night my parents came over to spend time with the kids while James and I had a date.  We were originally going to go to a particular restaurant for a delicious meal, but we weren’t entirely sure about it so we brainstormed other ideas the night before.  After disagreeing on a few ideas, James suggested that he really needs some new clothes (so true) so maybe we could go do some shopping.  If you knew James you’d know that he NEVER suggests going to the mall, and really, ‘James’ and ‘shopping’ are not two words one often sees or hears together.  I always wish he’d go shopping with me or be enthusiastic about shopping but it literally NEVER happens.  Well, on Friday he was being his opposite, because not only did he go shopping but he was also totally fine with looking in stores with me and not getting annoyed by things I was wanting to look at!!

He had a gift card for RW&Co (which seems to have changed a lot since he last shopped there…very Metrosexual now it seems like...but still some good stuff, although a little on the pricey side in my opinion) and ended up getting 3 new pairs of pants.  He also got a new pair of shoes at Aldo, and they’re a little different than what he would usually gravitate towards.  He still needs some things but it was a start, and it was fun to look around at a bunch of stores.  We also went into Target to check out their liquidation sales, but ended up only getting a few little things, we found the chaos of the store really off-putting and didn’t really feel like shopping there.  I’m really not sad to see Target go, other than feeling bad for all the people who will be out of a job, the store itself was a disappointment, which is why it didn’t last here!

We stopped at the food court in between shopping and shared some Thai food.  It was a simple date in that, yes, we were ‘just’ out at the mall, but it was SO much fun.  I loved it.  It felt like quality time because we were chatting and hanging out but we were also getting some retail therapy out of it, oh and I got a new pair of flip flops in celebration of it being the first official day of spring (and to replace the ones that are at the bottom of the lake that Margaret fell into last summer while feeding the ducks...ugh, I still can’t think about that without anxiety!  (Her falling in, not the loss of the shoes!)  Honestly it felt like a perfect date for me, it’s definitely something I want us to do again when we get the chance.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Spring Break trip to Science World

Yesterday we took the kids to Science World, which was crazy to do during Spring Break, I know, but it had to be done.  Originally James was just going to take Andrew but then I thought about how often he’s been since he was 2 and how the girls have NEVER gone and it made me feel sad about all the experiences they miss out on by the sheer fact that they are twins and it’s a lot more complicated to take two 2 year olds to a place like that (or just about anywhere!)

I knew it wasn’t going to be my personal ideal place to be, one because I’m kind of over Science World (it’s mostly always the same stuff and...yeah...What can I say, science is interesting obviously but at the same time Science World can also have the effect of boring me to tears (not literally!)  BUT it wasn’t about me at all, I really wanted to give the girls that experience and I KNEW they would love it, and boy did they ever!

It was a total gong show and I can’t see us going back anytime REALLY soon...but eventually we’ll get a family pass.  James and Andrew were still on their year membership and the girls are free till they’re 3 so I ‘just’ had to pay my fare, but whoa, just under $25 for one person is A LOT, especially when that person is there with twin 2 year olds who obviously aren’t going to actually get the full value (or let their mother look at anything of interest!)  BUT that being said, it really was totally worth it.

Andrew and I went through one area together, while James took the girls to the 6 and under play room.  Margaret was busy playing with a plastic boat in the water, while Emily was working with building blocks.  Andrew was playing but then started to get frustrated by the fact that none of the other kids would share the little balls that so many of the activities required (it’s true, they really didn’t have enough of the balls for all the kids).  By this point we were all getting hungry so we went to the cafeteria and shared veggie burgers and fries and I was so pleased with how well the kids did with waiting for the food to be ready.  They were so easy to deal with there that I decided it wouldn’t be a problem at all for James to take Andrew to the Animation exhibit while I took them there and then maybe back to the play room if they got bored.

Only instead of getting bored, Margaret decided to just take off altogether.  She was so close to me, and Emily was near me as well but on the other side of me so I looked at her for maybe 5 seconds tops and when I looked back, Margaret was gone.  I told Emily to follow me and luckily for the most part she’s pretty good about listening to direction, but I was a bit panicky because it was SO busy, to the point it wasn’t easy to just go searching for Margaret because I had to weave through all the people standing around everywhere.  I looked around one corner and one of Margaret’s boots was lying on the floor but she was nowhere to be seen!  So she lost a boot and even THAT didn’t deter her from running off!  I finally found her, only to have her run off again, only this time I SAW her run right out of the room and down another hallway, and again it took me a while to both convince Emily to come with me and run with her while weaving my way through the crowd...It was a bit of a nightmare at that point.  I finally found Margaret but she was in a completely separate exhibit, and it really scared me how quickly she was able to get that far away from me.  She wasn’t the least bit phased by it either, if anything she’d have been happy to run even farther.  She really didn’t care, to her it was a game and she was having the time of her life!  It was at that point that I decided to look for the boys and maybe take the girls down to the stroller and get them settled with a little snack (we’d got some popcorn) while waiting for them to finish checking out the exhibits.  

The girls usually nap at noon-ish lately (a little later than they used to) and by this time it was a little after 1:30 and they hadn’t napped yet, so they were definitely showing signs of getting overtired.  They clearly didn’t like the idea of leaving at first, but they were OK with getting into their stroller because they could only fight the tired for so long!

All 3 kids fell asleep on the way home so James suggested we stop for coffee and just sit in the van while the kids had a nap...Which sounded so great, but of course Margaret woke up as soon as we got the coffee, and Emily woke up shortly after.  It was only Andrew who napped like a champ!

It probably sounds like it wasn’t that great of an experience at Science World, but really it was.  The kids loved it, and it was so nice to see the girls giggling and running around and checking out new things they’d never seen before.  They particularly loved the flashing lights on the floor that make funny noises sometimes when you walk on them, and any and all water related activities.  And the French fries and popcorn!  It was stressful how Margaret wouldn’t stay close to me and Emily, but that’s why we don’t get out much, so it was to be expected.  I’m still glad they got to go and weren’t once again just cooped up at home instead of getting out there in the world.

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